As I've said before, while I was unemployed, I frequently felt really down. There were lots of days where I felt like there was no point in getting out of bed. There were lots of times where I thought to myself, I finally have lots of free time, but I just can't seem to find the energy to work out or even to take care of myself. I knew unemployment would end, I just couldn't see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel so I didn't feel like putting any effort into myself.
Now that I am back working, I am starting to regain my confidence in all aspects of my life. I've received so much positive feedback from my manager and my supervisor in the past two weeks and it has felt really nice. I know that this boost of confidence in my professional life is urging me along in my personal life and my health.
This past weekend, I found myself asking "Who am I?!" because I did something extremely out of character. I woke up at 7 am on a Saturday morning and went to the gym with my husband. If you had asked me 3 months ago if there was a chance I might wake up that early on a weekend, I would have told you that you were crazy. And if you added that I woke up early to go to the gym, I would have called the looney bin to have you locked up.
But it is feeling so good. I actually feel somewhat excited to go to the gym. Not because I love working out, but because I love the feeling I get when I'm done. The feeling that I've just done something to make myself better. LoLo said it too. He's feeling great. His body doesn't ache so much when he works his 10 hour days at an extremely physical job.
Some of you may have seen my post on facebook a few weeks ago when I talked about another reason I've been going to the gym, but this is my According to LoLo for the week: Someday, LoLo and I want to have children, but LoLo saw on the news that children born to overweight mothers have a better chance of having "optimism". I'm pretty sure he meant "autism", but I just love it when he mis-hears/misunderstands English. It's so cute. (I'm sure he feels the same way about me with Spanish).
If you all don't hear about my trips to the gym in the next few weeks, can you please give me a