Everyone says that when you find out you're pregnant, you feel so much joy and excitement. People often warn of the morning sickness that comes with the first trimester, but don't warn about how lonely that first trimester can be.
Often during my first trimester, I felt really alone. LoLo couldn't see a physical difference in my body, he only saw that I was really tired (which he at first said I was just being lazy). I wasn't really telling my friends yet, so there was no one to talk to about how I was feeling and what I was going through. I did have my family because we told them as soon as we found out, but I kind of wanted to talk with my friends who had had babies recently. I wanted to talk with someone who'd been through it. Someone who could understand how I was feeling physically and mentally.
There were days when I was so exhausted and just wanted to yell out, "I'm pregnant and I'm going home for a nap!" But I couldn't do that because no one knew yet and I had to try to act normal. I can't even imagine how it would have been if I had had morning sickness.
Pregnancy is such a weird thing to me so far. I'm just now starting to show a little bit (even though I've only gained one pound, my body is definitely shifting) and that has made me feel like it's more real, but I'm still kind of at the point where I don't feel any different than I did before I was pregnant. I've felt the baby move a couple of times which was exciting, but in the times that I don't feel it move, it's almost like it's not there.
People ask how I'm doing and my answer is always that I'm just hanging out...waiting for something to happen. I honestly don't feel different and am just waiting and excited for the time when I will feel like this is more real. Just two and a half more weeks until our big ultrasound where we get to see the baby for a longer time! Maybe that will help...